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I am a great believer in Karma, but just what is it? Karma comes from the Sanskrit and ancient Indian Language with the underlying principal that every deed in our lives will affect our future life. For example, if we treat others badly during our lifetime we will have negative experiences later on in that lifetime or in future lifetimes. Likewise, if we treat others well we will be rewarded by positive experiences.

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Tuesday 21 January 2014



 A Novel

John and Maryann live 5142 miles apart, in different countries, they've never met physically however this doesn't stop them having an intense and intimate relationship, the difference is, their relationship is on a different level, it's conducted psychically. What happens next, is romantically intense, intriguing and hilariously funny at times.

From the Author

There is a glossary at the rear of this book to aid understanding of Mediums/Psychics and how they work. Although I am a Spiritualist/Medium/Psychic, my goal is not to impose my views and the meanings behind them. Whether you believe some incidents are possible or not, just be open minded. This is a love story and includes some of the characters concerned. I like to think of it as a kind of hybrid. Any resemblance to any real person living or dead or names, dates or places is purely coincidental as this book is a work of fiction.

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"It was a very special moment for John's spirit was awakening and he was opening up, I had touched and resonated with his soul. It was more than just cyber sex, more than making love with someone you loved, it was blending souls as soul mates do and it was an incredible moment for the two of us. We both cried beautiful happy tears"
A Psychic Affair 

5.0 out of 5 stars What an Amazing Read :-), January 15, 2014
I found this book totally drew me in and couldn't wait to get to the next page to see what was going to happen!

Brilliant book - a must have read :)


Great read, it's not the usual romantic novel it's a bit of a cross genre

Great read, it's not the usual romantic novel it's a bit of a cross genre being informative and paranormal but it had me hooked, I would love it if the author wrote a sequel as I would love to know how the characters relationship goes I do hope the author does

Amazing read and was engrossed until I finished reading this book

Amazing read and was engrossed until I finished reading, this book is more than a novel it helps understand the psychic's world and has such depth of feelings
Stella Matthews

Chapter Nine “I don’t know what to say”

Just when I thought everything was so wonderful, and this happens all to often in life, something changes and turns everything around. John told me Janet seemed much better, he had been spending time with her and getting her out with the house and having both Janet and her little girl around to use his pool. Natalie was also spending time with her.

It was mid October by this time and John always chatted to me every day and left off-lines or  comments, somehow and I knew something was up, he was quiet and evasive. He was not his normal self. I asked him what was wrong, he told me nothing. I knew this was not true, I felt it; I sensed it there was something definitely wrong. Natalie came online and we started chatting:

“Hello Maryann”

“Hello there”

“Hi have you just been chatting with my brother by any chance?”

“Yes, a moment ago why lol?”

“How did he seem to you?”

“A bit down”


“He said he didn’t have a good evening, are you worried about him?

natalie 30
“I wanted to know how he would have been with you on here that’s all. I am a bit”

“He won’t talk much about it, he says it’s okay now but I sense he’s a bit down, that’s the trouble with being a medium, I sense too much.

“Did you ask him about it?”

“No, he won’t talk about it, so no point in asking him”

“Yes John doesn’t like to talk too deep sometimes”

“Yes, I know”

“Especially if he is upset”

“Oh I know he was very upset”

“Do you really know what is wrong?”

“Well, I know it will be to do with Janet most likely”

“I was not sure if he would have told you about Janet”

“Oh he has”

“I am a little surprised, John doesn’t like talking about it, but it’s good that he has told you”

“Well, I have shared things with him too”

“I need to talk to him properly, I will make sure he is okay”

“I know it’s causing him distress”

“He had a hard night, I got the call at the end of it. Has he really told you everything?”

“Well, we have been chatting since February”

“Oh that’s been a while now, I didn’t know that. I wasn’t aware of you until a couple of months ago. He has been very hurt but things are slowly getting better”

“Yes, I know we have compared notes”

“I don’t know what to do with him lol, he can get so fragile at times”

“I know, he’s an Aquarian like me and stubborn and tenacious lol”

“Well, I will talk to him but I don’t want to upset him. I know what his problem is, it’s just getting him to deal with it. Maryann will you be on messenger later?”

“Most likely why?”

“I have to go for now but if you want I will come on here later and talk to you about this”

“OK well I shall be on chat later Natalie well I want to help him yes”

“Yes, I know you do, that’s very obvious to me. I can tell that you care for him”

“He’s been a good friend to me too”

“Yes, I hope so. May I ask a favor of you?”

“Yes, of course”

“Don’t say we have chatted about this, he wouldn’t like what we have been discussing. I will come back later and if he is around here again let me know how he is”

“OK thanks Natalie you take care now”

“You too Maryann, chat soon”

I could tell, what had happened must have upset him deeply and it was obvious that his sister to whom he was so close was concerned, yet he had not said too much to her and she was trying to find out. I didn’t want to say what I felt had happened, being a psychic you know too much and it was not my place to discuss this with his sister even if they were very close

Hello Maryann
“How are you, have you spoken to John today?”

“No, I haven’t”

“Has he not been on?”

“No not to me why how is he?”

“I went round there last night like I said and he is not too good I have to say”

“But no I don’t know how he is, what did he say?”

“Yes, I found out everything”

“Yes, I know too

“I take it he told you about it?”

“Yes, he did”

“Well, we just spoke about it for a while”

“Did it help him?”

“I don’t think so he is confused”

“Did he say why?”

“He doesn’t know what to do, he said you’re angry with him lol”

“And he said that? Why would I be angry with him?”

“I have no clue”

“I am certainly not at all can't think where he got that from. He actually said that?”

“He was talking so fast but yes he said that. I had to tell him to take a deep breath and slow right down. I knew it was coming, just a matter of time?”

I wasn’t angry with John, I don’t think I ever could be I just loved him warts and all. We are all human, our time on earth is for learning and we all make mistakes, but it’s only from making mistakes that we learn

Eventually after a few days where he hardly said a thing, he told me what was up. Janet and the little girl had been round at his place one evening for dinner and they had been laughing and talking about old times. Janet started to cry and John tried to comfort her by hugging her. She sobbed she wanted the old times back, she wanted John back. He was hugging her and trying to comfort her he told me, when one thing led to another and he denied going all the way making love to her, he stopped in time, perhaps that may have been due to Janet’s little girl waking up or perhaps maybe he really did stop himself in time. I wasn’t there I only had John’s word for it.

“I will understand if you want to break it off and you hate me now”

“I just don’t know what to say here”

“I didn’t mean to do it, I’m sorry, it just happened”

“I don’t know what I am thinking and feeling right now, we had a deal you and I we both promised if our feelings changed we would be honest with one another”

“I know baby I am so very sorry, but I will understand if you don’t want to hear from me again”

“Is that what you want? You want me to go and get back with Janet?”

“No, it’s not what I want, I don’t want her back, we have a history, we talked after it happened and both agreed it was a mistake”

“I am glad you told me”

“I don’t want to loose what we have. I am so sorry. It shouldn’t have happened”

“You know I have told you so many times I am not like anyone else I love you unconditionally, I love you enough to let you go. If that is what you want?”

“I don’t want to loose you I love you Maryann, you are so special to me”

“Then you wont. I love you too Baby”

“I've made you very unhappy with what I did, I expect you to be angry”

“I'm not angry, I was so sad, but you see, I love you spiritually, I love you unconditionally, I love, all of you, the good and the bad and I love you so much so, enough to let you go if it made you happy. Baby do you think me strange?”

“No, I don’t”

“But you must admit I am different”

“Sometimes Baby lol, but not really, I don't deserve you”

“I know but you're stuck with me lol, being an Aquarian I am known for my tenacity lol I have missed you”

“Baby I have missed you too and I love you Baby”

We made love a bit difficult perhaps to imagine where you are thousands of miles apart, we cammed and talked about what we were doing to one another, it was so intense, so real then John said the strangest thing, perhaps he was beginning to feel spirit in the way I could.

“Baby it's so strange, there you are sitting naked in front of me, but I am seeing you through different eyes. You are beautiful not just physically but it's almost as if I can see your soul, it's so strange and weird and I don't know how to word what I am trying to say here, you are just radiant and glowing, I don't know what I am seeing. It feels as if you are really here with me and you and me are sort of one, blended together. I have never felt this before ever not even with Janet”

“Shshsh! Baby you don't have to say anything, for I sense and know what you are sensing, knowing, seeing and feeling for you are seeing my soul and not the physical me”

It was a very special moment for John's spirit was awakening and he was opening up, I had touched and resonated with his soul. It was more than just cyber sex, more than making love with someone you loved, it was blending souls as soul mates do and it was an incredible moment for the two of us. We both cried beautiful happy tears.


Love binds fast
Hopelessly tied
Unable to break the chain
Fate plays a cruel trick
My soul is bound

I cannot be freed
T'is a sweet pain
The ache is deep
And twists and turns
In my heart

It had been a difficult time, if I had any sense I would have walked away. I could not make rhyme or reason why I loved this man. I just knew I did. I knew this was a different kind of love, not the physical kind that begins with lust but it really was on a deeper level, and this was spiritual love where you wanted a kindred spirit to be happy. Where you want the best for them so much so you will do anything to see them smile. It is the kind of love a mother has for her child, the kind of love one sibling has for another, for a best friend and for a lover all wrapped up and bound in one package. Its very unselfish, non judgmental, no conditions attached, no hidden agendas, totally unconditional love: this is spiritual love.

Angel was still leaving comments asking him to come over to her classroom, quite deliberately I knew she was only leaving these comments to try to upset me and frantically posting new pictures, supposedly out partying with friends. Again, there was something odd about these pictures.
Natalie told me not to worry about Angel, she had known her for years, she was a gold digger, she also said she didn't have a high opinion of her and John knew she did not like her.

John was very attentive after that; he was pleased I had given him another chance and things settled down. In November, he decided he was going to put his house up for sale. It had been Janet’s and his home and it was time to move on. He told me first before Natalie. Angel was last to know; I did find that amusing as he posted the announcement on his page and that was how she found out about it.

It was not too long before he found a new place and sold the other one. John was also worried what Janet might say and he told me, when he told her she was upset, but it was time for him to move on. John told me he would not have internet access for a few days until he had that connected but not to worry and Natalie passed on messages back and forth between us during this time.

I was really beginning to write poetry during this time, it happened by chance I would look for poems to try to express my love for John and couldn’t find anything that conveyed it so I began to write many of which you see in this book.


Your eyes begged pleadingly
How could I resist their longing
And their teasing, their seducing
Your lips tasted of red wine
As they met mine
By now I was intoxicated
In your gaze, I was powerless
Your hot tongue made me sizzle
As it trailed from my undressed shoulder
Finding its way
To taste the sweetness of my desire
I could not resist your seduction
You drank in my passion
My back arched in ecstasy
As you demanded my body
I gave
More and more you stole my soul that night
I pleaded for the mercy of release
When at last
You took me to a place I had never been
And set me free
Hearing the screams of passion in some distant place
Your eyes melted with mine

Things were still much stressed at work as well as having my own marking of assignments in my subjects I was helping mark The Caterpillar's and The Walrus’s assignments. There was a great deal of inconsistencies in the marking and there was a growing amount of unrest amongst the students. In all the time I had been at the college, I had trained as a therapist myself here and come back as a tutor, I never felt so unhappy. The college used to have such a lovely family atmosphere it did no longer, what had been a joy, and pleasure to go to work was becoming one long chore. Again I spoke to the principal and it was almost as if she had disowned the place. Perhaps if she had appointed someone ultimately in charge that knew what she was doing, things would have been better.

I was so glad for the Christmas break, there was so much bitching and bickering amongst the staff by now and I knew it was going to be very stressful with the coming exams in January. The principal had stated she wanted the exam papers prepared in good time and we all had to work together on them. Alas, she needed to reiterate that to a certain pair of tutors. There were also falling numbers for the new intake I guess past students were spreading the news what the college had become and it was common knowledge within the beauty industry potential employers were unhappy with the standard of beauty therapists from the college. There was a sickness within the building and I tried to tell my boss on so many occasions what the problems were but she refused to listen. I tried so much to help her, I had built up the Complementary therapies and it had brought her in a great deal of money and many students were keen to join my classes as my students always had a high pass rate in the external exams. It was sad to see this happen to a college I loved.



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I am often asked various questions pertaining to the spirit world and various aspects of the psychic, here are some of them: I will in time feature more questions and answers as this webpage evolves

Q. Is a psychic or medium a fortune teller?
A. It may surprise you to know psychics and mediums are not fortune tellers
Q. Is it possible to forecast the future?
A.Well not 100% and this is because of free will.
Q. What is free will?
A. Free will is YOUR right to decide what you want to do about a situation, it is a choice
Q. How does free will affect a situation?
A. Well before we incarnate as Spirit in a human body, we decide on what experiences and challenges that will benefit our spiritual growth. However we are given the choice (free will) as to whether we go through with the experience or challenge. In effect we are allowed to change or mind.
Q. So are you saying we all know what lies before us?
A. Well in a way we all do. Remember we are 'Spirit' in a human body and your spirit does retain a memory but it is deep in our subconscious. This memory is retained deeply for a reason to help us fulfill our experiences and challenges we ourselves chose. However it is also at this deep level so we are not so aware. If you knew what lay before you would you go through with it? Probably not but we still retain this memory deeply and this reflects in our Aura.
Q. So what is the Aura?
A.The aura is The Aura is an electromagnetic field that surrounds living bodies, this includes people, animals, plants and crystals and is composed of several layers that are constantly moving. The Aura links us to whats known as Universal energy i.e. that is all the knowledge in the Universe past, present and future. It is on this aura that psychics are able to tap into and access your past, whats going on in the present and the possible future and I say possible specifically if your goal or desire is dependent on other people, for remember every person involved in a situation has free will.